.........Paul Child had asked Julia this very question. Her response? Eat! Paul then said jokingly (at least in the movie) And you do it so well! When Julia responded:I am growing in front of you!
Did, I mention, I love food? I watched Julie and Julia (actually, I am watching it again) if you knew, what kind of week, I have had and know, how my mind works. Then, you would understand. I am in a funk, not even re-runs of That 70's show, could cheer me up! But, that movie and making poached eggs over a sausage and potato hash with asparagus for dinner. Kinda did. I also made a dessert with strawberries, vanilla cake, vanilla pudding, and whipped cream (Michael's Favorite).
Cooking to me, is an obsession, my first love I'd might say. I don't know, why but, some people get it and some, well, don't. Furthermore, cooking and writing about food helps me to escape what I do everyday. Warm fussie-ness as Sue would put it, that place where "all is right with the world." Even though it is far, far from it.
So, I am at the part in the movie where she calls in "sick" from work because she burned the stew that she was making for the person who first published Julia Child's book Mastering the Art of French Cooking, but instead of being sick she had to make the stew again only to find out she wasn't coming. So, the boss calls her in to say: So, are you feeling better? and goes on to say if you don't "feel" like going to work then let me know, and I will find someone who wants their job. I am not a schmuck I could fire you, a republican would fire you. Only, after her and her husband got into a huge fight and left.
She, then goes on to say, that, she doesn't deserve her husband and asked her friend, if she was a bitch, her friend being a friend, like some that I have "real," too real sometimes, but, necessary agreed, that in-fact she is a bitch.
Well, after this week (which I am not elaborating on because well, has to do with my job) (which I really need at the moment and who knows who is reading). That, I am lucky to have a really nice guy, that I am married to. Supportive and is my rock, when, I want to just break down, fall on the kitchen floor and have a two-year old meltdown. But, along with my family and friends, I will wake-up tomorrow and have the best perspective as possible, with a smile on my face and will try and do my best. (Because I have no choice)
Which brings me to my mission. I really need to go back to school. I am going to be back on track this week and finally, fill out my financial aid. I am going to make something out of myself dammit! and I am going to have a job that I truly love and am passionate about. When you are a kid you want to become things like, a policeman, fireman, astronaut not a permit specialist, or receptionist, but something great, and by God I am better than that. I have too much talent and creativity then not using it to my full potential. I am tired of just "making it" and I for once am ready to live. I am that un-comfortable and un-happy where I cannot just deal with it anymore, with a lot of hard work and perseverance I will succeed. So there ya go......that's today or tonight I might say....until tomorrow!
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
St. Patricks Day and the cupcake.....
So, I broke down last night after a long day at work and ventured out to the grocery store. My mission, to find the ingredients for a french butter cream. Not just any butter cream, but, a vanilla bean, french, butter cream. (I had to call Publix ahead of time, to see if they carried real vanilla bean and surprisingly they do) However, when I got there, I wasn't so thrilled that the price of one vanilla bean was a whopping, $8.00. I quietly, said to myself this better be worth it. After, I made the tomato, spinach pasta, for the kids and the husband and ventured out to my mother's house for some solitude. (she, also has a fabulous kitchen, with lots of counter space and a mixer, mine died)
Did I mention, I love coming home? In the midst of 70 and 80's classic music playing in the kitchen. (Which always puts me in a good mood) I got to catch up with my mom, while attempting to create this butter cream icing and about a half an hour later, with a little compromise, it worked. It was a little rocky for a while, my egg whites ,deflated because the simple syrup, was not cooled down long enough. But, it worked. I made about two batches, I owe my mother some eggs, but, there it was. Wonderfully, fattening and it tasted like that Breyer's Vanilla bean ice cream. But, better because it is a frosting. I paired it, with a coconut cupcake infused with cinnamon and also made a banana cupcake, as well. I think, I got sick off, of so much icing. But it was good.
A co-worker is going up to New york, at the end of this month and is going to that, Butter Lane bakery and is going to tell me, if I came close. I brought them, to work today and have gotten good reviews. With a little "tweaking," I am definitely, going to add that frosting to my portfolio, for my business.
So, St. Patrick's Day, huh? This, day has a two fold meaning to me. 7 years ago, I took my naive ass down to county government and started my first day of work there, as a Receptionist. I remember it because I wore a black suit that day and anyone and everyone pinched me for not wearing green. With-out getting too depressed, that, I started as a receptionist and now I back to a receptionist position (Oh excuse me "Customer Service Specialist" to be politically correct) and that I am not a Chef yet. I made the cupcakes and shoved them ever so hastily into my mouth and said, I still have time.....just keep swimming, just keep swimming LOL
Did I mention, I love coming home? In the midst of 70 and 80's classic music playing in the kitchen. (Which always puts me in a good mood) I got to catch up with my mom, while attempting to create this butter cream icing and about a half an hour later, with a little compromise, it worked. It was a little rocky for a while, my egg whites ,deflated because the simple syrup, was not cooled down long enough. But, it worked. I made about two batches, I owe my mother some eggs, but, there it was. Wonderfully, fattening and it tasted like that Breyer's Vanilla bean ice cream. But, better because it is a frosting. I paired it, with a coconut cupcake infused with cinnamon and also made a banana cupcake, as well. I think, I got sick off, of so much icing. But it was good.
A co-worker is going up to New york, at the end of this month and is going to that, Butter Lane bakery and is going to tell me, if I came close. I brought them, to work today and have gotten good reviews. With a little "tweaking," I am definitely, going to add that frosting to my portfolio, for my business.
So, St. Patrick's Day, huh? This, day has a two fold meaning to me. 7 years ago, I took my naive ass down to county government and started my first day of work there, as a Receptionist. I remember it because I wore a black suit that day and anyone and everyone pinched me for not wearing green. With-out getting too depressed, that, I started as a receptionist and now I back to a receptionist position (Oh excuse me "Customer Service Specialist" to be politically correct) and that I am not a Chef yet. I made the cupcakes and shoved them ever so hastily into my mouth and said, I still have time.....just keep swimming, just keep swimming LOL
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Good morning....
Another day,well, actually the sunrise was beautiful this morning. Took Marley out for a walk and God was is fabulous. Can't wait until the warm weather comes. My legs are white as a ghost, man, they have been in hiding, for months now. Finally, started running again and I had to put some orange-y sunless tanner on, to hide the varicose veins, pregnancy and my lovely children left me. Children. Watch out ladies your body will never be the same again! You have been warned! LOL ...I have been lucky though. No complaints, here I could have been the octo-mom or something.
So, this morning, checked in to see the twins sleeping. (I like to do that a time or two, that's when I actually think they are angels) I love morning, when it's quite, everyone is still asleep or the late evening where everyone settles down and rests. Kinda like that movie with Brad Pitt. Benjamin Button or something....what did he say? Something about, how you can hear the house breathing...something like that. I love that, sit out on the porch when it's quite out and take it all in, life, just take it in. It like coming home, especially when you have been away for a while, how safe and comforting it is, home. Nothing like it.
He also said something like: Our lives are defined by opportunities, even the ones we miss. Which, brings me to my job interview, yesterday, it went well. I mainly said to God in the parking lot,(we talk) if it is meant to be, then let them offer it to me ,if not, then don't. But, I tried and that's good enough for me. I did not miss that opportunity at least, I think that would have turned out more disappointing, if I did not at least try.
So, St. Patrick's day is tomorrow, which, It will be 7 years with the county for me. Wow 7 years already. I think I am going to make cupcakes. I was watching food network (as I always do) and there was this clip about this cupcake bakery called Butter Lane. (the name does it for me already) Come on, Butter and then a Lane? Just, dripping with calories.
Well, they make these homemade, type (which to clarify, not jumbo or hormone injected cupcakes, but normal sized, like you made them at home type)cupcakes and they come with a little something special. They use all organic ingredients, but, more importantly they do a french butter cream. They start out by mixing granulated sugar instead of powdered sugar, egg whites, butter and real vanilla bean. The final product, is lighter and fluffier than your traditional butter cream. They paired the vanilla butter cream, with a banana cupcake. Yum-o! I am going to have to try that, most definitely. You cannot go wrong with banana and vanilla. No sir! Anyway, you can choose and pair frosting to which cake you want. Choices! Awesome. I will have to put that place, on my list to stop in, when, I get to go to New York.
So, tonight, as I am on food now, I am going to do pasta with a tomato, meat/vodka sauce with spinach. Yum-o again! That's the only way, I can get my kids to eat spinach, is to put fresh spinach and hide it in creamy, tomato sauce.
So, this morning, checked in to see the twins sleeping. (I like to do that a time or two, that's when I actually think they are angels) I love morning, when it's quite, everyone is still asleep or the late evening where everyone settles down and rests. Kinda like that movie with Brad Pitt. Benjamin Button or something....what did he say? Something about, how you can hear the house breathing...something like that. I love that, sit out on the porch when it's quite out and take it all in, life, just take it in. It like coming home, especially when you have been away for a while, how safe and comforting it is, home. Nothing like it.
He also said something like: Our lives are defined by opportunities, even the ones we miss. Which, brings me to my job interview, yesterday, it went well. I mainly said to God in the parking lot,(we talk) if it is meant to be, then let them offer it to me ,if not, then don't. But, I tried and that's good enough for me. I did not miss that opportunity at least, I think that would have turned out more disappointing, if I did not at least try.
So, St. Patrick's day is tomorrow, which, It will be 7 years with the county for me. Wow 7 years already. I think I am going to make cupcakes. I was watching food network (as I always do) and there was this clip about this cupcake bakery called Butter Lane. (the name does it for me already) Come on, Butter and then a Lane? Just, dripping with calories.
Well, they make these homemade, type (which to clarify, not jumbo or hormone injected cupcakes, but normal sized, like you made them at home type)cupcakes and they come with a little something special. They use all organic ingredients, but, more importantly they do a french butter cream. They start out by mixing granulated sugar instead of powdered sugar, egg whites, butter and real vanilla bean. The final product, is lighter and fluffier than your traditional butter cream. They paired the vanilla butter cream, with a banana cupcake. Yum-o! I am going to have to try that, most definitely. You cannot go wrong with banana and vanilla. No sir! Anyway, you can choose and pair frosting to which cake you want. Choices! Awesome. I will have to put that place, on my list to stop in, when, I get to go to New York.
So, tonight, as I am on food now, I am going to do pasta with a tomato, meat/vodka sauce with spinach. Yum-o again! That's the only way, I can get my kids to eat spinach, is to put fresh spinach and hide it in creamy, tomato sauce.
Monday, March 15, 2010
So, it's Monday....again.
Good morning, fellow readers...all three of you. Hmmm, I need to work on that. Anyway, it's Monday again. We are losing an hour of sleep, it is not yet spring (still a wee bit cold), worked all week-end and it's Monday. Yay. (try not to be too excited)
So, this morning I was watching my usual You-tube bloggers *Ahem* (we'll give them a shout out) The Philip Defranco show, The vlogbrothers, Equals three, Shane Dawson and this british kid Tristopia (he's growing on me). (check them out on you-tube and comment if you like them)(Ahhh, spreading the love)
(BTW, my job is not that demanding, I just processed all of the online permits, for the building division, Friday) Yeah, nothing to do, but look pretty and answer the phone. What have I become?!!! Okay, a little mellow dramatic...But, still I need to get this career thing going.
So, I was thinking about this whole blogging thing, my life really isn't that interesting. But, does it become interesting when, we write it down or vlog about it? Like facebook status updates? Oh I am going to home depot and picking out flooring.......comment comment comment ......Who the "f" cares? (Note: the "f" is for my mother-in law, she hates it ,when I curse) (she also asked me over the week-end, What is WTF?, I thought it was funny.)Now, I have become sucked into facebook and updated my status a time or too. I mainly, do , on the off occasion, I do go on facebook just to let everyone know, that, I am still alive. Or, I get the messages that say: Hey, are you still alive? You are never on here? Oh, I am sorry, I am just carrying on, living my life like what you should be doing, than being on facebook. But, when you think about it? How stupid is that? There is a great personal, invention it's called the telephone. Call me, if you want to check if I am breathing. Or, there is this "chatting thing" that people, you hardly talk to, want, to all of a sudden "chat" and it goes like this.
Hello or what's up?
Nothing much u?
Nothing....
So.....
Yeah....
How r the kids?
Good.
how are your kids or with my generation college?
good. you know.....
brb....
log off.....
(1/2 hr later)
log back in....
other person? gone....okay, back to surfing the web...
That's like when you run into someone whom, you weren't really friends with, in high school and all of a sudden they are like Oh, hey what's going on? blah blah blah...yeah good... It' just weird. What do you talk about? Umm, yeah, I haven't seen you in 5 years and well, awkward, and I don't really know what to say and I am not going to pour out, my whole life story to you and yeah it's so good to see you...(Great, now if people see me in the store they will totally avoid meor think I am a major bitch now) I'm just 'sayin, it's fake and gay. It's just funny if you really think about it, the meaningless, "socialy correct," "small talk" we do on a daily basis. We all do it, no shame, just funny when you think about it. All that fluff.
Just, proves the point, certain people stay in your life and some well, don't make the cut. God, that sounds, bitchy. Maybe, because I'm always the one like: Oh, yeah let's get together (like actually get together, not just talk about it)or investing time into people, that really don't give a shit and I'm tired of it. Yeah, I tend to get trampled. (pity party asside) Wow, how did this get into a bitch fest? Re-wind....so, as I was saying, blogging do we really say, what is really going on? or do we filter it because other people can see?
So, this morning I was watching my usual You-tube bloggers *Ahem* (we'll give them a shout out) The Philip Defranco show, The vlogbrothers, Equals three, Shane Dawson and this british kid Tristopia (he's growing on me). (check them out on you-tube and comment if you like them)(Ahhh, spreading the love)
(BTW, my job is not that demanding, I just processed all of the online permits, for the building division, Friday) Yeah, nothing to do, but look pretty and answer the phone. What have I become?!!! Okay, a little mellow dramatic...But, still I need to get this career thing going.
So, I was thinking about this whole blogging thing, my life really isn't that interesting. But, does it become interesting when, we write it down or vlog about it? Like facebook status updates? Oh I am going to home depot and picking out flooring.......comment comment comment ......Who the "f" cares? (Note: the "f" is for my mother-in law, she hates it ,when I curse) (she also asked me over the week-end, What is WTF?, I thought it was funny.)Now, I have become sucked into facebook and updated my status a time or too. I mainly, do , on the off occasion, I do go on facebook just to let everyone know, that, I am still alive. Or, I get the messages that say: Hey, are you still alive? You are never on here? Oh, I am sorry, I am just carrying on, living my life like what you should be doing, than being on facebook. But, when you think about it? How stupid is that? There is a great personal, invention it's called the telephone. Call me, if you want to check if I am breathing. Or, there is this "chatting thing" that people, you hardly talk to, want, to all of a sudden "chat" and it goes like this.
Hello or what's up?
Nothing much u?
Nothing....
So.....
Yeah....
How r the kids?
Good.
how are your kids or with my generation college?
good. you know.....
brb....
log off.....
(1/2 hr later)
log back in....
other person? gone....okay, back to surfing the web...
That's like when you run into someone whom, you weren't really friends with, in high school and all of a sudden they are like Oh, hey what's going on? blah blah blah...yeah good... It' just weird. What do you talk about? Umm, yeah, I haven't seen you in 5 years and well, awkward, and I don't really know what to say and I am not going to pour out, my whole life story to you and yeah it's so good to see you...(Great, now if people see me in the store they will totally avoid meor think I am a major bitch now) I'm just 'sayin, it's fake and gay. It's just funny if you really think about it, the meaningless, "socialy correct," "small talk" we do on a daily basis. We all do it, no shame, just funny when you think about it. All that fluff.
Just, proves the point, certain people stay in your life and some well, don't make the cut. God, that sounds, bitchy. Maybe, because I'm always the one like: Oh, yeah let's get together (like actually get together, not just talk about it)or investing time into people, that really don't give a shit and I'm tired of it. Yeah, I tend to get trampled. (pity party asside) Wow, how did this get into a bitch fest? Re-wind....so, as I was saying, blogging do we really say, what is really going on? or do we filter it because other people can see?
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
We, will be back in our house, this week-end!
Yayeah! (Even though they took their sweet ass time getting things done, one month to be exact) Then they wanted to blame it on the inspection process, yeah, *a-hem* worked for the building division?
Anyway, Michael and I will be happy to be back at our house once again, brand new......new floors, new paint, new carpet.....to later mess up again. Our dog, Marley, should be ecstatic because I think by now, she is clinically depressed with all of us being gone only to pop in to feed her and take her for a walk.
So, yeah my new job...good for the most part. Aside from the petty occasional drama I could very much due without. But, so far so good, not fired yet and to make matter worse I had gotten another job offer. Perfect timing. I said to myself but, one who does not shy away from opportunity, I applied. My current boss, said all the right things, when I told her, but, I yet still un-decided. Because well, I kinda like my job now and money isn't everything. But, for once in my life opportunity is knocking at my door, not the other way around so maybe (pause with dramatic climax) wait for it......A sign! Okay, maybe, minus the dramatic climax.
Anyway, lot's of cleaning to do this week-end LOTS.....So this past week-end saw Alice and wonderland, Fantastic by the way! Of course Johnny Depp never disappoints. The film was visually fantastic and I was delighted it was not the same story. So a must-see I'd might say. Gabe was loving it especially at the end the dance the mad hatter performs (very funny).
Which brings me to parenting, the last few weeks have really tested my patience as a parent. I know being all in one room at my parents house has not been fun for them as well. But, yeah I have never researched tips on parenting so much in my life. (like there is a book) But, still I have been recording Super nanny and everything these past few weeks. They, have been CRAZY! The stress is really getting to me, I have actually been looking forward to work (as crazy as that sounds). Yeah, that bad. Like you go to the doctor for a check-up and come back with cancer bad.
But, all joking aside, I am getting teenage behavior now.
Did God say?
God: Yeah, this would be funny watch this!
Madison gets mad at me one day screams, and says: Mommy you are really making me mad! and slams the door in my face.
I am like WTF? Thinking to myself :I should not have this hormonal meltdown until at least 13.
So, I did not know what to do?
Well, scratch that, I was so mortified ,I bust open the door and say: don't you ever do that to me again, I am not ready to have this conversation with you!
She looked at me like what?
Anyway, Michael and I will be happy to be back at our house once again, brand new......new floors, new paint, new carpet.....to later mess up again. Our dog, Marley, should be ecstatic because I think by now, she is clinically depressed with all of us being gone only to pop in to feed her and take her for a walk.
So, yeah my new job...good for the most part. Aside from the petty occasional drama I could very much due without. But, so far so good, not fired yet and to make matter worse I had gotten another job offer. Perfect timing. I said to myself but, one who does not shy away from opportunity, I applied. My current boss, said all the right things, when I told her, but, I yet still un-decided. Because well, I kinda like my job now and money isn't everything. But, for once in my life opportunity is knocking at my door, not the other way around so maybe (pause with dramatic climax) wait for it......A sign! Okay, maybe, minus the dramatic climax.
Anyway, lot's of cleaning to do this week-end LOTS.....So this past week-end saw Alice and wonderland, Fantastic by the way! Of course Johnny Depp never disappoints. The film was visually fantastic and I was delighted it was not the same story. So a must-see I'd might say. Gabe was loving it especially at the end the dance the mad hatter performs (very funny).
Which brings me to parenting, the last few weeks have really tested my patience as a parent. I know being all in one room at my parents house has not been fun for them as well. But, yeah I have never researched tips on parenting so much in my life. (like there is a book) But, still I have been recording Super nanny and everything these past few weeks. They, have been CRAZY! The stress is really getting to me, I have actually been looking forward to work (as crazy as that sounds). Yeah, that bad. Like you go to the doctor for a check-up and come back with cancer bad.
But, all joking aside, I am getting teenage behavior now.
Did God say?
God: Yeah, this would be funny watch this!
Madison gets mad at me one day screams, and says: Mommy you are really making me mad! and slams the door in my face.
I am like WTF? Thinking to myself :I should not have this hormonal meltdown until at least 13.
So, I did not know what to do?
Well, scratch that, I was so mortified ,I bust open the door and say: don't you ever do that to me again, I am not ready to have this conversation with you!
She looked at me like what?
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