.........Paul Child had asked Julia this very question. Her response? Eat! Paul then said jokingly (at least in the movie) And you do it so well! When Julia responded:I am growing in front of you!
Did, I mention, I love food? I watched Julie and Julia (actually, I am watching it again) if you knew, what kind of week, I have had and know, how my mind works. Then, you would understand. I am in a funk, not even re-runs of That 70's show, could cheer me up! But, that movie and making poached eggs over a sausage and potato hash with asparagus for dinner. Kinda did. I also made a dessert with strawberries, vanilla cake, vanilla pudding, and whipped cream (Michael's Favorite).
Cooking to me, is an obsession, my first love I'd might say. I don't know, why but, some people get it and some, well, don't. Furthermore, cooking and writing about food helps me to escape what I do everyday. Warm fussie-ness as Sue would put it, that place where "all is right with the world." Even though it is far, far from it.
So, I am at the part in the movie where she calls in "sick" from work because she burned the stew that she was making for the person who first published Julia Child's book Mastering the Art of French Cooking, but instead of being sick she had to make the stew again only to find out she wasn't coming. So, the boss calls her in to say: So, are you feeling better? and goes on to say if you don't "feel" like going to work then let me know, and I will find someone who wants their job. I am not a schmuck I could fire you, a republican would fire you. Only, after her and her husband got into a huge fight and left.
She, then goes on to say, that, she doesn't deserve her husband and asked her friend, if she was a bitch, her friend being a friend, like some that I have "real," too real sometimes, but, necessary agreed, that in-fact she is a bitch.
Well, after this week (which I am not elaborating on because well, has to do with my job) (which I really need at the moment and who knows who is reading). That, I am lucky to have a really nice guy, that I am married to. Supportive and is my rock, when, I want to just break down, fall on the kitchen floor and have a two-year old meltdown. But, along with my family and friends, I will wake-up tomorrow and have the best perspective as possible, with a smile on my face and will try and do my best. (Because I have no choice)
Which brings me to my mission. I really need to go back to school. I am going to be back on track this week and finally, fill out my financial aid. I am going to make something out of myself dammit! and I am going to have a job that I truly love and am passionate about. When you are a kid you want to become things like, a policeman, fireman, astronaut not a permit specialist, or receptionist, but something great, and by God I am better than that. I have too much talent and creativity then not using it to my full potential. I am tired of just "making it" and I for once am ready to live. I am that un-comfortable and un-happy where I cannot just deal with it anymore, with a lot of hard work and perseverance I will succeed. So there ya go......that's today or tonight I might say....until tomorrow!
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